I couldn’t sleep last night. I went out for dinner last night with a great bunch of ladies. We had fun, laughed a lot, ate some dessert. But I didn’t fall asleep until about 2am. Not b/c i had too much caffeine but b/c my Holy Friend was all over me about my mouth. James 3:8 “but no man can tame the tongue. it is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.” was alive and well last night.
I wasn’t talking smack or gossipping horribly but i sure wasn’t letting the Light shine in me. I just kept feeling convicted about one thing after another. I have been praying Prov. 10:11 “The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life.” i want my words to bring life. I usually struggle with that when i am frustrated and angry about the boys behaviour or about crazy life situations. But last night all was well, I just did not let the Holy Spirit filter my mouth.
So I could not finally fall asleep until i agreed that i would be transparent about this struggle, as well as make some apologies. Thus the verbal vomit. i have a hilarious friend that often explains situations like this as verbal vomit. I had no ill intentions last night but i think some silly things I said could very well have hurt people’s feelings though they may never admit it to me. I don’t want to be the kind of person that quietly wreaks havoc on people’s self-esteem or thought life. We all know people like that and they certainly don’t leave a nice taste in our mouths.
So if you know me and see me and happen to hear me running off at the mouth. Please just say “fountain of life” and shut me up! Thanks for letting me share!