You know how sometimes a world vision commercial will come on the tv and you change the station b/c you just can’t watch it? At least that is what I do. I used to hate watching tv when I would nurse during the middle of the night b/c those commercials would always be on and I would end up bawling. It strikes a nerve and hurts too much to watch b/c I feel like there is nothing I can do. I am really, really prone to do that. Because I internalize those pictures and stories and think about them for days, weeks.
I saw this on Whittaker Woman’s blog and my first response was to skip it. But I made myself watch it. Sometimes pain and feeling uncomfortable is good. It changes my perspective, makes me stop complaining and in helplessness makes me ask the Father “What do you want me to do? What do you want me to do with this?”.
Now I don’t have the answer…. yet. But it is good for me to feel just a little bit of the pain my Father God feels when He sees the helpless suffer. And I am supposed to be His hands and feet. What does that look like exactly? I am not sure, but if I don’t keep reminding myself that there are people that tangibly need to feel His provision…
Then I will forget and be content to sit and read blogs and eat ice cream and drink Starbucks with my friends and sit fat and happy in my nice little picture perfect life WHILE CHILDREN ARE ORPHANED AND BABIES STARVE TO DEATH.
So give me a break. I didn’t want to watch it either. Take the risk and FEEL so maybe God can use it in your life. He may have something He wants you to do for Him, but you can’t hear Him until you let yourself FEEL a little! Sorry for the rant, but I had to give myself that pep talk before I was brave enough to watch it. Thought you might need it too:) Love you, really!